never good enough. awesome feeling.

feel so fucking depressed right now.

i love him, to death. i am so in love with him, hes perfect for me, and i for him. and i could definately see myself with him for the rest of my life. &i love his little sisters, theyre like family to me. but hes only met my family once and doesnt like them, he needs to be willing to give them a chance, but he says he doesnt wanna ever go to family functions with me, and thats not okay. family is a big thing to me, and its not like i love his entire family, but i still hang around them and am nice. plus he doesnt wanna get his own place, for like another year or more, but im more than ready to get my own place. once i have surgery on the 21st of next month im gonna be laid up for a while, and its gonna suck and be a lot of work, but once im able i want to get out of my house and get my own place. idk. just taking it one day at a time right now and hoping for the best, trying not to stress more than i already am. so idk what my future holds, i just know i love Steven and i hope hes in it.